Sleepless in Chicago

For some crazy reason, I stayed up pretty much all night yesterday. I got up around 1 am to nurse baby and decided to work on a few items for my etsy shop and when I was done, it was 5am. Since I had to go to work by 7, I didn't get to nap until way pass 11am.

Since having our baby, I haven't really had me-time and as much as I love my baby, I really miss having the time to do whatever I want without worrying about anyone else. The freedom to go take a crap without worry and for however long I want/need to. The freedom to just run out to the store or even just to the car to grab something. The freedom to scream and cry when and if I want to. All these things have to be done with some planning involved and with discretion. I wouldn't change my life for a split second but after 8 months, I've realized that it has taken a toll on my emotion and mental well being.

I have had only 3 hours of me-time since having her 8.5 months ago. I have spent time away from Elle many, many times but only to go to work or to buy something. So I have decided to forgo sleeping to get some time for myself. The only problem with that is that my house is made out of paper and I have to be really quiet while the rest of the house is asleep. It's still better than nothing and I know I can't keep it up for too long but for now, I'm going to use it wisely. I suppose spending hours behind this computer isn't very productive but at least it's relaxing.