Maybe next month

I was secretly hoping that I would be pregnant but AF showed up today so I guess it's not happening. It's a relief in a way cuz the thought of possibly being pregnant made me rethink my health insurance once again. Back in February, I changed my provider and opted NOT to get maternity coverage because I was going to do a homebirth. Um, what the hell was I thinking? I don't think I have the balls to do it. As much as I want to and think that I can do it at home, it scares the crap out of me at the same time and probably will give me a heart attack if I had to do it without a choice. The problem is that my health plan requires to be on it for a full year before maternity is covered. Since I'm not pregnant, I think I'll add maternity just to make sure I have that option in case I don't want to do a home birth. Maybe this little scare is a blessing in disguise so I better get a move on it since I'd like to have a baby this time next year.