Craptacular

I've been in the worst kind of mood lately. Is it possible to have PMS without the M part? Well, I know a lot of it has to do with being overweight which makes me just want to eat more which makes me hate myself even more. In addition, my teeth are still continuing to bother the shit out of me. I'm not a pill popper at all but lately I've been taking tylenol almost every day. all my molars are killing me and I don't know what to do. well, besides having to go to the dentist, which i do not want to do. I know what's going to happen so why bother. You'd think that since it hurts to chew, that I'd stop eating so much. Well, it only makes me chew less so I probably don't digest my food very well and that also contributes to my weight gain.

Well, I'm finally doing something about it. I just bought myself an elliptical trainer machine!! I've had gym memberships before and wasted hundreds of dollars on paying for annual fees without going more than a month worth. Plus 90% of the time that I've gone to the gym, I've just used the elliptical machine so this way, even if I don't feel like exercising outdoors, which I generally don't feel like doing anyways, I'll always have something to work on.

I'm hoping to lose weight by July so I can be healthy before I get pregnant again. But most importantly, I just want to feel better and not feel like shit all the time.