Today is my father's birthday.

Thursday, April 10, 2008 | |

He past away on November 1st, 2001.

of liver cirrhosis.

he was a major alcoholic.

I hadn't spoken to him in over 9 years or so before he past away but I did see him 4 months prior to his passing and I ignored him.

I went to visit his gravesight but it was raining so much and Elle was sleeping so I just parked my car and sat there for a few minutes.

I don't know why I go but I always go for his birthday, father's day, new years day and the anniversary of his death.

He really had a tough life and upbringing but he didn't need to die like that. I wish I had spoken to him before he died.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is something I think about alot. My father is an alcoholic too, and we have a VERY strained relationship... and have gone several years without talking... we've just started talking again since I've had the baby, so it's still awkward... but I'm his only child, and I think about things like what will happen when he gets old and/or sick...he has a new wife (it's his 5th wife, and 3 step daughters) but I feel like they're gonna bail when he gets old and sick... anyhow, I'm sorry about your dad. Sounds like you and I may have a lot in common though.

-Joanna (YYM)

Anonymous said...

*hugs*

asiangard said...

I'm sorry, but don't blame yourself, you did what you did to survive, and he knows that now.