First time away

Eleanor is out with my mom. It's the first time she's been driven by anyone else besides A-man or I. But she did great. If we had been driving, she would have fallen fast asleep but since my mom and aunt drove, she just partied. My mom called when they got to her house to report that she's doing fine, which I knew she would. I didn't even hug or say goodbye to her. She was happy to go and I wasn't at all nervous. I get more nervous when A-man takes her out. I trust my mom completely a little more than I do with A-man which isn't right. I know and I'm working on it.

So in efforts to trust A-man more, I'm letting him take her on a trip to Florida in two weeks. He will be meeting up with his parents who rented a condo for 2 weeks and they will be staying with them for 8 days. The day after I bought the tickets for them, I broke down and bought a ticket for myself to join them for the last 4 days of their vacation. It's not that I don't trust him, it's just that I'm freaking out at the thought of being away from her for that long. I have a shit load of stuff to do so I can keep busy while they are away but they are also going away during Valentine's day so I'd like to be there with them. Plus, it'll be nice to get away from this cold. Although it would mean that I'll be with the in laws for 3 days non stop which is also giving me a little anxiety so since the ticket was super cheap, I might have to bail out if everything is going ok with them. We'll see.