We're back!! it was the worst trip ever. when I got there it was late at night so Eleanor was asleep in the car and transferred over to the bed well and didn't wake up until about midnight. When she did wake up she looked at me and you could tell it didn't register for a minute but as soon as it did, she started screaming for the boob. Since it was a one bedroom hotel and his parents were sleeping in the "living room" with paper thin walls, I felt really bad and eventually gave in even though I was going to stop nursing all together since she was used to it for the past few days. Nursing for the first time in 4 days really hurt not as much as the beginnning but almost as painful. The body heals so much faster than I thought but it's already getting used to it. I guess I didn't give Eleanor enough credit because I thought maybe she would have forgotten about nursing and not really look for it. But it was like no time had past and all she sees in me are big jugs.

So we nursed as usual for the rest of the trip. I still didn't feel 100% and puked about once a day but I got to swim with her for a bit and walk along the ocean.

I won't go too much of the rest of the trip but staying with the in laws was just as horrible as I thought it would be and I just don't want to recap and think about it. the highlight was when my MIL got pissed drunk, drinking more than half of a costco size 1.75L vodka, straight, in one afternoon and groping my boob and almost pouring milk down baby's face. But I told her off both times.

Don't tell Alex but before I left, I dumped the rest of the vodka in the drain and left about an inch at the bottom. I can't stand drunks esp anyone getting drunk near my baby. How can anyone do that? or better yet, how can anyone drink a liter of vodka straight up???? Fucking bitch!

I'm so happy to be home!!