Twitch

I went in for my 20 week ultrasound to see baby Twitch and "he" wouldn't stop moving. He measured prefectly healthy and everything looked great but we didn't get any good pictures because he was faced down for most of it. I have great profile pictures of Eleanor and was hoping for that again but each baby and the US technician is different so I guess I should just be content knowing that everything is good.

Thank the Lord!!

I think I'm done puking. I woke up feeling kinda normal today. it's been almost 5 days without puking (knock on wood) and I'm thinking it's over. that would be soooo wonderful, although I'm not sleeping much and waking up in the middle of the night and exhausted all day. but at least i'm not exhausted AND puking, that was bad, really bad.

So, yesterday i met with a realtor for my mom to try to sell her house. She loves that house and doesn't want to sell it in this market but she kinda has to because she really can't afford the house. My parents live in a 5 bedroom house and of course doesn't need all that space but they are from the old country and the biggger and better your house and car, the better you're life is. It makes no sense to me but I do understand where she's coming from. Koreans are all about face, they want to look like they are all together and although it's really not to show off, it's really about pride and they are proud of having nice material goods. She thinks that I live in a hole in the wall and she begs me to re do my bathroom everytime she comes over, every time!! but it's functioning and we have enough space for the 3, soon to be 4, of us.
But reality has hit and even though she wouldn't be making as much money as she would in a good real estate market, she needs to sell it. the problem is that the lowest we are willing to go, the lowest she is ABLE to go, is still priced higher than the comparatives, which is very upsetting. and I had this genius, not, idea to sell my cheap old house and move into her house and just take over her mortgage. Her house is literally 3 times bigger than my house and it would be totally awesome to move there and not have to fix anything and her mortgage is only $400 more than the total of all the expenses that I pay currently. BUT alex isn't going for it. My initial suggestion was to move in with them because there's more than enough rooom for 3 families but my parents hates cats and doesn't want my dog either.
But i had a talk with my sister last night and she made a good point about property taxes and just staying put at our cheap house with even cheaper property taxes. My mom's property tax is over $9000 and ours is about $3500.

The bottom line is that i'd hate to just give the house away, it really is very nice in a great area and my mom's pride and joy but since she really did it to herself, she needs to take responsibility for it and just let it go. I just hope that it sells with enough profit for her to buy a little, cheap house with low monthly payments.

Anyways, that's what's going on right now and it's really stressing out my mom which means that it's stressing me out. I really, really need to win the lottery so i can pay off her house and she can stay there.

Oh and another thing, I found out yesterday that i might be paying upwards of about $10,0000 in taxes. How much does that suck?????? This year is going to be really expensive with paying out of pocket for the pregnancy, paying for my dog's leg surgery which we started last week and paid $1700 for one leg and have to go back for the other leg, my car is also on it's last leg and will need to be replaced this year (it has over 200K miles on it), and then taxes. But I really believe that things will work out as they have always done in the past for us. I know I'm blessed and lucky even during these horrible financial times but in case, Thank goodnesss I have wonderful credit with no debt so at least i can charge everything and worry about it little by little.

I'm Back

i started work today. I'm feeling much better but still not 100% but this is a heck of a lot better than puking after every meal so I'll take it. I haven't been doing much because of my morning sickness and I even forgot to take pictures on the first of this month for Eleanor like I do every month. Something about April that puts me all out of whack. The last two Aprils, I missed taking pictures on the first of the month so I used a picture taken sometime that week. I do know why but it doesn't make sense. April is a bad month for me, a friend of mine committed suicide in 2001 and my father who past away that same year has a birthday in April. So this month is nothing more than a reminder of death for me.

But things are going well at home and as soon as I feel better, I'll be able to go out more and not just sit around at home watching TV all day. I really hate the TV because i LOVE it so much. I didn't have a TV until February and I was fine but as soon as we installed it 2 months ago, I've been doing nothing but watch TV. I wish I didn't have it again or had some self control but it's a good excuse to waste time since the weather is so shitty.

Since I'll be working now, about 3 days a week, I'll try to post more regularly and note how fast my baby is growing up. She's a little monster, I tell you, I dont' know what to do with her. She won't keep her clothes on and likes to touch herself and I don't know how to stop that because I don't want to yell at her to stop because she might keep doing it to spite me but then I don't want to ignore her, letting her think it's ok. I try my best to keep clothes on her but we started potty training and she has no diapers on and wont put back on her pants after we go to the bathroom first thing in the morning. I'm thrilled that she's potty trained but my house is pretty cold and my baby seems to not care about being cold. Oh well, hopefully it's just a phase.

I'll try to remmeber to bring my camera to work so I can upload pictures and show you how much she's grown. if she was only as sweet as she looks....