I'm Back

i started work today. I'm feeling much better but still not 100% but this is a heck of a lot better than puking after every meal so I'll take it. I haven't been doing much because of my morning sickness and I even forgot to take pictures on the first of this month for Eleanor like I do every month. Something about April that puts me all out of whack. The last two Aprils, I missed taking pictures on the first of the month so I used a picture taken sometime that week. I do know why but it doesn't make sense. April is a bad month for me, a friend of mine committed suicide in 2001 and my father who past away that same year has a birthday in April. So this month is nothing more than a reminder of death for me.

But things are going well at home and as soon as I feel better, I'll be able to go out more and not just sit around at home watching TV all day. I really hate the TV because i LOVE it so much. I didn't have a TV until February and I was fine but as soon as we installed it 2 months ago, I've been doing nothing but watch TV. I wish I didn't have it again or had some self control but it's a good excuse to waste time since the weather is so shitty.

Since I'll be working now, about 3 days a week, I'll try to post more regularly and note how fast my baby is growing up. She's a little monster, I tell you, I dont' know what to do with her. She won't keep her clothes on and likes to touch herself and I don't know how to stop that because I don't want to yell at her to stop because she might keep doing it to spite me but then I don't want to ignore her, letting her think it's ok. I try my best to keep clothes on her but we started potty training and she has no diapers on and wont put back on her pants after we go to the bathroom first thing in the morning. I'm thrilled that she's potty trained but my house is pretty cold and my baby seems to not care about being cold. Oh well, hopefully it's just a phase.

I'll try to remmeber to bring my camera to work so I can upload pictures and show you how much she's grown. if she was only as sweet as she looks....